I’m a woman on a mission – to grow, to heal, to learn, to understand. I’ve lived in northern Indiana all my life, and I live there still with my adorable and endlessly patient husband of 27 years and an ever-rotating combination of my three grown-ish children – a young man and two young women. I’m a musician and a teacher.
I’ve experienced shifts in my ideology over the last decade. It can be hard, lonely work to battle your way out of that stifling cocoon. When I talk with trusted friends about these shifts, or lead a group through an introduction to self-discovery, those who are interested are ALL IN. They are hungry for new truth and new vision. So am I. It’s for this reason that I blog instead of journal for myself only. If there are people eager to stretch and explore and grow, I want to be found by them and learn from them. “Solitary work which cannot be done alone” is what Suzanne Stabile calls her ministry, which focuses on personal and spiritual growth. Engaging with others on a similar journey informs my own. Sort of like a GPS with a function that lets you know if there’s a speed trap ahead, or if there’s a more efficient route suddenly available.
Scattered throughout my mostly happy, content life, full of smart, funny, supportive people, I’ve also experienced religious trauma; hopeless prolonged interactions with cruel, damaged people; isolation; grief; miserable jobs and painful misunderstandings. Here’s the thing: I’m committed to not squandering pain. I believe that these hardships exist to teach us, so I am a willing student. Not so much because I want to avoid the pain that might continue to come if I don’t learn from the hardship in this moment, but because I want so badly to evolve. I’m not sorry for ANY of the wisdom I’ve gained over the years, no matter how painfully it came.
During the coming weeks and months of blogging, you can expect for me to reflect on some of these lessons from the past and trying to find the wisdom presenting itself in today’s pain. You may also find me pulling in the wisdom of those who have been helpful to me along my journey. We’re in this together, and we can’t do it alone.